I am a die hard fan of Siddharth. So much that you will find his photo even on my cell phone as a screen saver. I am sure most of you all would agree that he is fine actor. I am not going to write this post yakking about which college Siddhu went to or how he became an assistant director to Mani Ratnam. As my blog's title says, Vanity is my favourite sin...:D...This post is just to make a mention that I am a big fan of Siddharth. Thats all.. :)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Wondering who this is? Or what am I trying to say here? Well Clingboy(CB) is a guy at my work place who yaks more than I do, now can u believe it? Well its true. Why is he called CB. Simple reason, he tries to cling too much and can test anyone's patience. Some people are often overly persisting in nature and they eventually tend to become very clingy. Like Dr. Lecter says, we covet what we see everyday, these people unknowingly start coveting. So wherever u go, u are bound to come across some people who would try to cling on to you. To a moderate extent it is ok and can be dealt with, but beyond a point, it is not fun. Just to get your attention for a minute atleast, these people would go to any extent. For example now, CB used to ping me day in and day out hoping to get my reply atleast once, he would constantly call me and leave me voice msgs, he would text me all the time. Oftentimes I have even felt, that he is crazy and keeps bugging me. But its sad but true that there are a lot of times any of us could become like this. There is a clingboy or clinggirl in each of us. It is just about how much control we have over our minds that decides whether or not the clingboy or clinggirl in us is going to come out or not. Talking of this, I just realized, how many times, I have myself done this to my bf and believe me it is not exciting or fun. It is actually painful. This just comes down to a previous post of mine where I was taking about craving for attention. Weirdly though, I have been realizing that I havent done much good to my relationship with my bf by being clingy. And I have just realized, the more attention you give to certain people, the more they take you for granted. Its simple, never give anyone more importance than what they deserve. As for CB, I am a little sorry for him, but sadly I cannot really help him. The moment there comes a CB or CG in his life, he would himself realize what he has been doing.
It is easy to day dream, it is easy to assume that life is very cool. However, have u ever been lonely? I am not talking about solitude. There is a fine line between solitude and loneliness. Sometimes I wonder how I could be lonely when I have caring parents and brother and some friends too. My parents and bro are great but are miles away. Isnt this enough to feel lonely? I think loneliness is at its peak when someone u want to listen to you, is not much interested in what you have to say to them, when u want to see someone, but that someone isnt as interested as u, when u want to hear someone speaking but that someone doesnt have much to say to you. Loneliness could drive you mad, could kill you, could do anything to you. I wish I could learn to enjoy the loneliness too. I have tried a lot many things which people are always ready to give me advice on. I am still all alone...
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Day dreaming is really fun...remember it is a dream, so stop trying to bring any practicality into your dream. Po Bronson in his book says, 'Get rid of the fear factor, pursue your dreams.' Life is a bitch not because of all the several problems that we are made to fight every day, but also because we as human beings pose several bounds on ourselves and our lives, thanks to our 'society' for this. We keep bounding ourselves and we put bounds on our thoughts too and keep telling ourselves that a particular thing is 'supposed to be' a certain way. Have you ever thought about how much these mental bounds frustrate us. However I often try to let myself loose, by forcing these mental bounds to loosen up a little bit and try to look at things as is, than with the 'supposed to be' outlook. Oftentimes, it makes problems look simpler and lets you accept the situation or problem, which in most cases is the first step to conquering a problem. Sometimes I just close my eyes and visualize, I visualize all the things I had been expecting to be happening in my visualizations, and let my imagination loose and try to take off all my mental blocks and visualize peacefully. In my dreams and visualizations, I rule the world, everything happens the way I want, there is no place for sadness, because there is no place for practicality in my dreams. After sometime, I feel much better, I feel lighter and something you would be surprised to hear about also happens. I realize all these visualizations of mine were too good to be true, in real world, things arent so easy, but since my dreams and visualizations calmed me down, now I look at my problem with a more relaxed outlook and it feels much more easy and not so life destructing. That was a fun part of dreaming, however some great minds visualize things and come up with some of the best ideas in the world. I long back visualized several little things I have achieved in my life and believe me it definitely helps. So breakfree today, dare to dream, dreaming is a lot of fun and tons of relaxation.